taking it for granted

It seems like i'm moaning on a lot lately but it also seems like everything in my life is going up in flames, and not for the first time either. I guess im just lucky ive got you guys to talk to about it all. i feel really used to be honest. i have a friend, or should i say, had a friend. And he's been through a real rough time over the past few weeks as something that happened years ago, seems to be haunting him. I think im the only person he has talked to properly about it. i made im go to a councillor and hestarted constantly screaming and shouting and blaming me for werid things.i dont hate him, i just feel a bit used. you know what im saying. the thing that really gets me though is that he had the nerve to say to me that im a bully and i made his life hell. hmmm. that felt like a stake to my heart. plus the fact that now he is still draggin all our other friends down and they are constantly worried about him but i cant help them either. Grrr!

But hey i still have both my legs and my fingers to talk to you. It might sound really odd but i really feel better when ive written it all down and even though its a small thing, it kinda takes the weight of it off me.

i think that all nasty people should be locked away in a cupboard and made to sing about B.I.N.G.O the dog till i get sick of hearing it. Then they could read the bible front to bk then bk to front.

Well, after not seeing you all for such a long time i think it was slightly rude of me to go straight into my problems without a hello how are you kiss my arse or nothing. Well i'm sorry. and i want to know how you are if you'd like to tell me.

I might have some shocking news for you all next week. but im giving nothing away yet. its one of those tune in next time things. haha. they piss me off too.

i think ive discovered a miracle aswell. ok, we've got a cat called timmy and he's the cutest thing alive right. we also have a jack russell called snoopy, and they fight. proper boxing. but yesterday it was really funny cos they were fighting in the lounge and timmy danced his way to the door on his back legs. still punching away. as soon as snoopy had a pause, timmy darted up the stairs and jumped out the bedroom window. we just heard footsteps up the stairs, across the floor then we saw a black flash and timmy run off up the road. quality kamikaze cat. i wonder ow much his tv deal would get us. or you've been framed. wow. party at mine!

ok so ive been away for a while and im sorry but no flowers? no concern for my life. very inconsiderate guys come on? i dont suppose id best race to pick up the mail in the morning then with none of you caring enough to send a card. i had better save my energy so i can live longer and hopefully earn enough to pay someone to care for me and not let me rot. sniff sniff.

well i still love you anyway, whether you love me or not.